Witness, God Approves You

Ecclesiastes 9:7-10

“Go, eat your food with gladness, and drink your wine with a joyful heart, for God has already approved what you do. Always be clothed in white and always anoint your head with oil. Enjoy life with your wife, whom you love, all the days of this meaningless life that God has given you under the sun—all your meaningless days. For this this your lot in life and in your toilsome labor under the sun. Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge and wisdom.”

I opened my bible to this book and immediately resented everything. My anger for God was toiling and grueling for the past few days. I had thought, “Why won’t He just tell me what I must do so that I may follow through to it!

There is meaning—I know It~! What is it! Tell me! Let me witness it!

This cannot all be meaningless!

God!” I screamed.

Silence.

I prayed, I sat with myself withering in my own mind.

Casting upon myself the torment of the human design.

Then while I opened the bible to read this.

The first words I found.

“Everything is meaningless.”

My rage boiled beneath my flesh as my heart was swallowed by the darkness.

I nodded, convinced that reading upon this word, my mind would be forever in a state of unrest.

And as I kept reading it, nothing proved me not right.

Everything is meaningless.

My body strained and I felt my mind uneasy as I began to spiral in the human design.

And I was about to shut the book in a bout of fury but I decided.

Do something different.

Do not act upon rage.

Upon the human design.

So, my fingers twitched and my eyes grew weary as I examined word for word the book of Ecclesiastes.

Hopeless.

Confined.

And grueling and held firm by the failure and process of my human design.

Then as the darkness swallowed me entirely, I reached out my hand in one final breath for my deliverance.

As my eyes turned to the next line.

Freedom.

From my human design.

“God has already approved what you do.” –Ecclesiastes 9:7

My eyes fell heavy as tears streamed out like bullets at the side and I turned my head from the bible as if to shield my face—my shame.

God, you have spoken to me, yet again.

This world –the human design finds structure and lingers upon it heavily.

But You… You ask that we only do one thing.

Follow your commandments.

And in doing so we may live freely.

It finally all made sense.

Because before it never did.

How could someone live freely and be confined to rules.

Brother, sister, the word meaningless…. Is quite the opposite.

In it you find the words “meaning” and “less”

What does that mean, you might ask?

It means do not stress.

Do not hold upon you the world.

Do not live your life so rigid.

Do not confine yourself to the structure of the human design.

We look for answers and want the why.

But God gives us the why so that we may find the answers within Him.

Within ourselves.

From birth—childhood and even as adults, we ask why.

No one knows why.

I don’t know why things happen the way they do.

But when they do, then we know why they happened.

Forever in search of the answers outside of ourselves we will never truly find our why.

Because why is not tangible.

Why is not a question.

Why is the answer.

Your very purpose for living.

Then as I read further I came upon this.

“Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might,” –Ecclesiastes 9:10

I love to write.

But I thought, it cannot provide for me.

But I love it so fiercely!

It will not let me go.

I cry at nights sometimes, “Why, God? Curse me with such a love for a craft that does not thrive in this human structure? Why?”

Because, I have found, it is my liberation.

My freedom.

My purpose.

No one in my entire life has told me that I should not write.

They have expressed that I should keep steady to a job of security, but heed me.

Money comes but will never grant you security.

Do not cling to it.

You will suffer for:

“Whoever loves money never has enough; whoever loves wealth is never satisfied with their income.” –Ecclesiastes 5:10

Money is the tangible flaw of human design.

We think that if we have enough—if we have more! We will be happy!

Lavish and belly filled to the brim.

No, this too is meaningless.

No amount of pursuit toward any of it—a number will grant you happiness.

For your happiness you cannot put a number on it.

That would make your skill limited.

Look beyond it!

Beyond your human design!

Look beyond the limited.

Look beyond the numbers.

How I went from angry and feeling shunned by God—cast out by His own hands to my eyes open—my heart lit aglow with his illumination truly defines Him as the God of suddenly.

One minute it does not make sense then the next it all does.

One minute life is meaningless then you find meaning in the very word!

Stop living by the shackles of human design.

And start living with the limitless abundance of this life!

Cast your eye to the sky and witness, God has approved it.

What you desire, what you pursue, what you dream of!

It is only limited by the human design.

It is only limited by one thing—person.

You.

Now go and stop feeling like God wants to restrict you, because all He is asking is that you stop restricting yourself.

Stop playing it safe.

That is not why he brought you upon this earth for the time you are here.

So Pursue Him.

Pursue Your life beyond Your human design.